it was easier when you were gone, 

i could keep the dream alive.

i could convince myself that it was

bad timing, a hopeless dream, 

a trick of fate

was the reason we weren’t together,

that it wasn’t because of me.

that i wasn’t scared to love you.

but now your coming home

and that’s all i wanted,

for so long,

for you to be here with me.

but i know it was a hopeless dream,

another life,

but it wasn’t made for us

but i can’t let go of that dream

because it’s the only thing I’ve been able to 

hold onto…

and i know 

this would never last,

but it was easier when it was just a dream 

because you’ll come back

and break my heart all over again. 

and darling it was just healing.

– i was just starting to be able to live without you. but it doesn’t mean that i don’t love you still…