i saw you in the supermarket, this time it wasn’t a dream. there were so many times i wanted to see you, so many times i wanted to reach out just to ask you how you’ve been. tell you that i miss you. there was so many things i wanted to tell you, so many things i should have told you.

but there you were, stood at the checkout, i didn’t see you first but i saw her and my heart i knew you there, and seconds later you were by her side. i don’t think you saw me, i’m grateful you didn’t. i stoped for a second, i held my breath and my heart didn’t break at the sight of you two, maybe i had finally let you go. i did feel sad, i think i always will with missed opportunities, especially when it comes to you. i allowed myself to look just for a moment, you hadn’t changed but then again i couldn’t say that, two years past and at first it felt like an eternity. isn’t it sad that we lost touch but i couldn’t have loved you like this when you loved her. and i always will say this, i’m glad you’re happy, you deserve it. i loved you for too long without saying anything so i can’t blame you for loving another. 

as i was leaving i expected you to be gone. i didn’t have to hold my breath, my heart went back to normal. yet there you were walking towards the flowers, towards her, your home. i took one last look and walked towards the exit hoping my heart would do the same. 

–supermarket checkouts, darling i’d like to by a new heart.