i became so lonely living with heartbreak. i don’t know when we became strangers, it’s been a year since i last heard from you. there was no reply, you left me on read. darling you keep breaking my heart. what happened to us, we used to be inseparable. i remember the last time i saw you, we were at our coffee spot. i fear that maybe have been the last time. there has been so many times i wanted to pick up the phone and call you just to hear your voice, when did we fade from each others lives. there’s this dream i keep having, it always comes back to you. in the dream we’re happy, it’s a life we could’ve had, if only i could’ve told you how i felt. we’re there at the beginning, eighteen and doe-eyed, believing we had all the time in the world. but somehow time caught up to us, and i don’t know where it went. we were so young and there was so much more i wanted. i would never not want you. in the dream you smiled at me like i’m everything you ever wanted and i can almost believe it’s real and not a dream blended within memories. how cruel to forget what was once true and the illusion of a broken heart. i wish i could have made you happy. i wish i could have looked you in the eye and told you i loved you, that those years together were some of the best of me. without you darling life is not the same, colours became faded, there’s this sadness i can’t shake. maybe that’s the regret in the pit of my stomach. i can’t blame you for falling in love with another, what could i have given you, she was able to love you when i couldn’t but believe me when i say not telling you how i felt was the biggest heartbreak of my life. 

–maybe this was all i was going to get from loving you, the inevitable heartbreak.