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my heart will always break for you.

you’re trying not to tell her 

that you’ve miss her,

but you have and 

you always will.

but it’s been so long,

and you still feel the same

and that scares you 

because you’ll always be in love with her,

there’ll never be anyone else,

your hearts is hers.

you’re trying not to fall 

apart at the sight of her

but your hands tremble 

and your voice wavering.

it’s been so long since you saw 

her last

and everything comes rushing 

back, 

the echoes of memories

paralyse you

the pain is still there,

your heart still breaking 

for the woman you love

and the sad truth is that

it always will.

–my heart will always break for you.

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it was the test of time and the price was our love.

there will be a time where this all fades,

and we’ll become stories

and all that’s left will be our love.

maybe somewhere,

somehow 

history may be kind to us

and remember what we were,

rather than who we became, 

but if your hearing this 

then please

let us be more than

the tragic tale 

of what happed to our love.

but if history is not kind

to us,

if she makes her choice,

i pray that our love lasts 

in the stories she will tell

i hope we last…

withstanding the test of time

because darling 

we were meant to.

i hope history will remember,

the good,

and the way we fell in love

but if not

maybe

in another lifetime, 

a kinder one

we’ll be remembered 

together rather than 

being torn apart.

i don’t want our story

to be remembered 

as one where fate 

did not go our way 

and we lost each other.

because all i wanted 

in this life 

was to be remembered 

with you.

–it was the test of time and the price was our love.

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i love you, always [x] i loved you, almost [x] I think I’ll love you forever [x]

in a few days you will leave, 

and i’ll be left with a broken heart.

i never knew the monster at the end of our book would be time, 

we were supposed to have forever to fall back together. 

you told me you broke it off with him, 

that you fell out of love. 

darling, 

you will be my biggest regret, 

i wasted so many months hoping you’d give me a second chance, 

and now it’s gone as fast as it came. 

maybe one day we’ll get our chance, 

until then i’ll settle with our almost,

somewhere out there i believe that we are together in another world,

another life.

and i’m the one who makes you happy.

– i love you, always [x] i loved you, almost [x] I think I’ll love you forever [x]

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i was just starting to be able to live without you. but it doesn’t mean that i don’t love you still…

it was easier when you were gone, 

i could keep the dream alive.

i could convince myself that it was

bad timing, a hopeless dream, 

a trick of fate

was the reason we weren’t together,

that it wasn’t because of me.

that i wasn’t scared to love you.

but now your coming home

and that’s all i wanted,

for so long,

for you to be here with me.

but i know it was a hopeless dream,

another life,

but it wasn’t made for us

but i can’t let go of that dream

because it’s the only thing I’ve been able to 

hold onto…

and i know 

this would never last,

but it was easier when it was just a dream 

because you’ll come back

and break my heart all over again. 

and darling it was just healing.

– i was just starting to be able to live without you. but it doesn’t mean that i don’t love you still…

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there just has to be happier story for us my love

there has to be another life,

another us

                  somewhere.

         a story in which 

we were happy,

                after everything.

         one where your not

          dying in my arms.

and i can’t save you.

there has to to be one,

just that 

               one.

where we live,

                    where 

        we find peace knowing

the war is over.

                           it’s done.

                 and 

we don’t have to fight 

                                   anymore.

          one 

                where 

                          we can live.

there has to be a universe 

                                      where this isn’t 

                                                   the only ending,

                                        we get.

that they’re other stories,

                                    for us

                    out there.

       because we can’t be…

this can’t be…

          we’re not this almost which was

                                            never enough for us,

                                                                     for this story.

       there has to be another.

this can’t be the only end.  

                                           we don’t deserve this my love.

i hope were there in and amongst 

                others stories, 

                                                     happy ones

                           because we lived

                      through too many 

                               tragedies

                       history wont let us forget.

and i can’t lose you again.

                                         i won’t.

      we deserve to be happy, my love.

–  there just has to be happier story for us my love.

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maybe somewhere in another universe, another lifetime you’re with me

There’s a universe out there where we are together. One where you’re not with him, you’re with me, and that my actions, my choices didn’t factor into loosing you. There’s an ‘us’ somewhere among the universes. If that’s not here. Not now, nor in this world or lifetime I pray that somewhere we’re happy, that in that universe we’re not in the same situation we are in now, one where you’re slipping through my fingers and falling into his arms. That in one life somewhere we end up together. The memories, the idea of you and me live through my stories, in the words I write. We fought so hard to be with one another in this life, and for our story to end up like this is truly heartbreaking my dear. It wasn’t our fault, life just came and took us on different paths. Things like this happen, people change and drift apart. I will always love you my dear, and I’m sorry that in our story, in this lifetime we don’t end up together. There’s a universe out there where we are together, that I’m with you, and you’re with me and we’re happy, that in that universe we didn’t hurt each other like we did in this one, that our choices make us stronger rather than ripping us apart, and fate doesn’t get in the way of our happiness. I don’t know if you believe that but I have too, that in one universe there is an ‘us’, and if the fates allow thats the universe I will always choose, the one I will always dream about, that’s the one my heart lives in, the one where we are together.

– maybe somewhere in another universe, another lifetime you’re with me

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i don’t want to lose that one perfect memory of us

Over the years, the pain, those memories started to fade. I started to heal. My heart didn’t hurt from the thought of you or ache for the sound of your name. I stopped looking for you in the eyes of other people, I passed in the street. I moved on with my life, but sometimes when I sat down to write you always came to my mind, were you happy, did you find somebody else. Did you sometimes still think of me and what we had, what we could have been. Sometimes I hope I’d find you in my words, in our memories. I always wanted to check up on you but I couldn’t bring myself to know if you’d fallen for someone who wasn’t me, and I know what we had happened a long time ago now but you my love hold a special place in my heart. I just wanted to remember us, and the way were were all those years ago when we were younger, happier. 

– i don’t want to lose that one perfect memory of us.

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thank you for loving me.

my darling i never 

deserved your love.

i was so lucky

because you loved me 

anyway.

maybe somewhere 

i’m enough for 

you,

maybe somewhere 

i’m deserving

of your love.

maybe one day i’ll be 

that person

worthy of your love.

i hope maybe someday 

i’m better for you, my love.

– thank you for loving me.

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our history meant nothing unless we’d be remembered together.

there was something 

in the way history 

told our story.

it was beautiful 

and yet so tragic.

it was told that

we would always 

be searching for 

one another 

across the stars 

just to find peace 

in each others arms.

but history would 

never let us be happy

for long.

there was always a price 

the universe said

when we found each other.

when the universe separated us

we’d always be missing half 

of ourselves, 

we’d only be half alive.

so when i found you,

after all that yearning,

wandering through 

heaven and hell.

i felt whole after years

feeling like i was missing 

the other half of my heart.

we were never told 

how many times 

history had repeated itself,

but i believe in my heart 

it was always written in our

blood to find one another. 

our love always came with a price 

but it was one i’d always 

be willing to pay, 

if it meant i could love you 

until my dying day.

– our history meant nothing unless we’d be remembered together.

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i will always be in love with you, in every lifetime.

this is my last goodbye my love,

to something that never was.

this is

my last letter,

a soft epilogue, 

an ending to maybe, 

finally 

close the book.

because

here lies our hopes,

our maybes,

what could have been.

maybe something that never was.

what i thought to have believed.

we were

a story that was tragically unwritten,

because i could never find the 

right words,

for us.

for you,

or for me

because maybe we could have been 

great, if only i had the courage 

to tell you how much i loved you 

while you were still here with me.

please

forgive me

for all i never said, 

for everything i longed to say.

i love you,

and you knew,

and that’s the tragedy. 

because i loved you 

with everything i had,

i guess it wasn’t enough 

in this universe 

but i hope it is in the 

next. 

– i will always be in love with you, in every lifetime.