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it was the night before december and all was well.

it had been years, and the feelings i had for you became easier to live with. but it was that night in november when i saw you again. i had seen you from a distance from across the room and my heart just ached. i didn’t expect to feel this way again. yet it came to the end of the night as i was saying my goodbyes, i couldn’t leave without seeing you, i wouldn’t have forgiven myself. you were at the bar, my hand naturally went to reach out for you, as you turned around, you smiled. and in that moment i was twenty-one again, completely and madly in love with you. as you hugged me, relief washed over me as i held on to you tighter. i had forgotten how you made me feel. and in that moment i missed you and everything we could have been if only we had the time. as we broke our embrace, your hand went to cup my face, you looked into my eyes. i hope you saw everything i meant to say all those years ago. it had been years but every time i would see you, it was like those feelings never truly left. 

– it was the night before december and all was well.

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halfway gone.

i can’t keep hoping for someday, because those dreams are broken just like our promises. we exist like this, basking in this grief, all this misery left with the silence we leave behind when we walk away. we become tragedies in other peoples stories. we let our dreams fade, become dormant and give ourselves too willingly to other people who will just break our hearts in the end. 

you’ll break my heart in the end. maybe these words won’t reach you, maybe they’ll mean nothing, fall on deaf ears. maybe i was not meant to love you like this. 

– halfway gone.

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she always said love was a kind of killing.

maybe we were always meant to break each others hearts, maybe that’s the way our story would always go. but that doesn’t mean that our love wasn’t true, that we didn’t love each other with everything we had. maybe we never stood a chance to be more than that in this life, but maybe somewhere else we could be. maybe we could have been better for each other if only we let down our walls. if only we stopped to love each other rather than trying to find love in other people. my love we could have been so much more that what we were. and i came so close to seeing your heart before you broke mine. but the story was always going to be the same, we would always destroy each other in the name of love. 

–she always said love was a kind of killing.

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i love you, always [x] i loved you, almost [x] I think I’ll love you forever [x]

in a few days you will leave, 

and i’ll be left with a broken heart.

i never knew the monster at the end of our book would be time, 

we were supposed to have forever to fall back together. 

you told me you broke it off with him, 

that you fell out of love. 

darling, 

you will be my biggest regret, 

i wasted so many months hoping you’d give me a second chance, 

and now it’s gone as fast as it came. 

maybe one day we’ll get our chance, 

until then i’ll settle with our almost,

somewhere out there i believe that we are together in another world,

another life.

and i’m the one who makes you happy.

– i love you, always [x] i loved you, almost [x] I think I’ll love you forever [x]