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i dreamed that i’d be waiting for you, watching you walk down the aisle. but that’s just a dream. one now i know will never come true. 

you looked beautiful, all in white. i’ve been seeing pockets of your life for years now. darling time has caught up to me, and i didn’t realise how much we faded from each others memory. i never wanted to become a stranger to you, with messages left on read, no reply. i wish i could say time has healed but it hasn’t especially the place in my heart left by you. i’m haunted by dreams of what could have been, if only i made a different choice that night. maybe i’d be with you. i was so scared of admitting my feelings and losing you but now i’m left with only your ghost haunting these memories. darling there was a time in my life where everything revolved around you, nothing else mattered. i will never know if my love was requited. sleep never comes easy, often i dream of you, sometimes it’s in the form of old memories, happy ones. time and time again some dreams give me second chance to make a different choice. and with that choice i always choose you. i was foolish years ago not kissing you that night because that’s all i wanted to do. i lost you when the years came and went with no reply, i never not thought we’d be in each others lives. i thought we’d always be ‘us’. time changed and we grew apart. and i should have taken those chances because at least then i would have known what it was like to kiss you, to have risked having my heart broken because the latter of not taking those chances has left regret. darling i must confess i’ve loved you for nearly ten years and i never told you how i felt. it was always here in my words yet they could never leave my lips. loving you were some of the best years of my life. i didn’t see you walking down the aisle, i wasn’t there waiting for you like my dream. i’m sorry i never told you how i felt. and now i never will because your happy and that’s all i ever wanted. so i’ll settle for the photographs laying here with all the letters never to be sent. 

–i dreamed that i’d be waiting for you, watching you walk down the aisle. but that’s just a dream. one now i know will never come true. 

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second to the right, and straight on till morning.

It was always a bedtime story, a fading dream, one I could never quite shake. There was this feeling, a longing… it was there when the sun would set, when the sky went dark. The stars would shine as you tried to rest. But that feeling was always there, it never left, until you found Neverland. 

But the sad truth was that feeling never really went away, it had just subsided for a while. You were always searching for something, for a purpose. Every night you returned to those old London streets, with tired bloodshot eyes, sparkling in the light. You were always looking for the light. It wasn’t till one night, you stumbled across her house. It was the only house with the light still on, and oh my darling, all the adventures you’ll have. And I know you’ll fall for her. You’ll ask her to stay, because after her, Neverland never seemed too quiet. One day you know she’ll have to leave and I know you’ll think it’s because she doesn’t love you, that what else can you offer her. You’re left with that feeling in your chest that when she goes back got her old life, she’ll forget. 

You could have followed her back you know. But you chose to stay alone, you could’ve grown up, lived a happy life with her. But you chose the easy way out, you became just another sad story. One day she’ll remember, and maybe one day she’ll tell your story, one about a boy who chose never to grow up. Or maybe your fears will come true, maybe she’ll have forgottten you.

You became a bedtime story, filled with someones else’s dreams of a life you never had.

– second to the right, and straight on till morning.