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halfway gone.

i can’t keep hoping for someday, because those dreams are broken just like our promises. we exist like this, basking in this grief, all this misery left with the silence we leave behind when we walk away. we become tragedies in other peoples stories. we let our dreams fade, become dormant and give ourselves too willingly to other people who will just break our hearts in the end. 

you’ll break my heart in the end. maybe these words won’t reach you, maybe they’ll mean nothing, fall on deaf ears. maybe i was not meant to love you like this. 

– halfway gone.

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i was just starting to be able to live without you. but it doesn’t mean that i don’t love you still…

it was easier when you were gone, 

i could keep the dream alive.

i could convince myself that it was

bad timing, a hopeless dream, 

a trick of fate

was the reason we weren’t together,

that it wasn’t because of me.

that i wasn’t scared to love you.

but now your coming home

and that’s all i wanted,

for so long,

for you to be here with me.

but i know it was a hopeless dream,

another life,

but it wasn’t made for us

but i can’t let go of that dream

because it’s the only thing I’ve been able to 

hold onto…

and i know 

this would never last,

but it was easier when it was just a dream 

because you’ll come back

and break my heart all over again. 

and darling it was just healing.

– i was just starting to be able to live without you. but it doesn’t mean that i don’t love you still…