there were so many things i wrote down,
so you could never hear them.
all the things i wanted to say.
it wasn’t that i didn’t want to tell you,
because i did,
i do.
but every time i tried
i couldn’t.
i couldn’t tell you
i loved you.
because you never belonged to me,
you were always in love with someone else.
so i wrote them down
in the hopes of maybe one day
you’d realise everything i did
was because i loved you
even if you could never love me.
– all i wanted was to ask for your love.
you’re trying not to tell her
that you’ve miss her,
but you have and
you always will.
but it’s been so long,
and you still feel the same
and that scares you
because you’ll always be in love with her,
there’ll never be anyone else,
your hearts is hers.
you’re trying not to fall
apart at the sight of her
but your hands tremble
and your voice wavering.
it’s been so long since you saw
her last
and everything comes rushing
back,
the echoes of memories
paralyse you
the pain is still there,
your heart still breaking
for the woman you love
and the sad truth is that
it always will.
–my heart will always break for you.
there will be a time where this all fades,
and we’ll become stories
and all that’s left will be our love.
maybe somewhere,
somehow
history may be kind to us
and remember what we were,
rather than who we became,
but if your hearing this
then please
let us be more than
the tragic tale
of what happed to our love.
but if history is not kind
to us,
if she makes her choice,
i pray that our love lasts
in the stories she will tell
i hope we last…
withstanding the test of time
because darling
we were meant to.
i hope history will remember,
the good,
and the way we fell in love
but if not
maybe
in another lifetime,
a kinder one
we’ll be remembered
together rather than
being torn apart.
i don’t want our story
to be remembered
as one where fate
did not go our way
and we lost each other.
because all i wanted
in this life
was to be remembered
with you.
–it was the test of time and the price was our love.
tash writes 