i wanted it to be you. i’d hoped it be you. darling, how could i not love you. you came into my life when i needed someone, i didn’t realise how lonely i was. these past years made me cold. i forgot what it was like to feel like this. the butterflies, my heart beating out my chest. you made me feel less blue. i know nothing will come of this. and i know it ended as soon as it started. i know you don’t feel the same way. it’s a fleeting feeling, the fine line between love and heartbreak. i don’t know if i’ll ever see you again, if we’ll ever speak again and there’s this sadness that comes with that. that it’ll never been the same again. we’ll never be the same again. darling there’s so much i want to say but i don’t know how, and i don’t want these words to hurt you. there were so many times i wanted to text you, to call you and hear your voice but i’m scared of the silence that comes after. i don’t know what to do with these feelings, truth be told i miss you, i didn’t know heartache could feel like this. but i guess that’s the risk we take. to have the courage to give someone your heart and say ‘there’s a part of me that’s yours’. i guess you never know how someones going to affect your life, how they can take home in your heart. and sometimes all you want to do is hold onto them, and the heartbreaking thing is sometimes you can’t. i guess it’s not up to you, and the sad thing is you think you’ve got all the time in the world. so my advice tell people how you feel before it’s too late. tell them that they light up rooms, that they make you happy, that they’re are a shot of expresso on a sunday morning, that they are sunshine on a rainy day. that they brightened your heart. it doesn’t matter in what way just tell them you love them. because if you don’t how will they ever know.

– sorry darling if this is getting to you a little late, i was never good with timing.