time heals everything but you

i hate the how they say time heals all wounds, truth be told it doesn’t. because it still hurts the sound of your name, a fading memory, the old pictures. my heart breaks still when i see you, it’s less frequent now and i don’t know if i should be relived or just sad because we’re not the same, you not the person i fell in love with. our conversations become shorter, the texts i send never get a reply. i hate how time has done this to us. 

i love you and time has made a mockery of my words because darling there’s still so much i have to say but i just don’t know how. it’s not like before. we’re not as close as we once were, but i still miss you like it was yesterday. darling i have these words, i just wouldn’t know where to start. maybe i’m holding onto something that ended long ago and time still hasn’t caught up with my heart telling me it’s time to move on, to let you go. 

i wish i could heal and move on, find someone new. instead of trying to write chapters of a book that finished years ago. i’ve been in love with you for seven years and there are too many unsaid ‘i love you’s’, scattered in these letters. so many words unsaid left in this broken heart of mine, these letters of a lost love just fading, left to dust after all these years. 

darling, these words never sounded the same after you.

time heals everything but you. 

but till that days comes, you will always be my biggest ‘what if’.

I think love for you will always be there 

in the stories, poetry, letters 

that I never sent.

Our love was not one to be remembered 

in the history books. 

It was not a great love story, an epic romance,

it would fade with time,

Like we did.

Maybe one day I can finally

let you go. 

But today is not that day,

and I will love you till that

day comes.

But until then 

I hope you know that I

held onto us for as long as I could.

Until those three words lost there meaning.

Maybe one day I will write about someone

other than you.

but till that days comes, you will always be my biggest ‘what if’.